by S.L. Jordan
“Where were you last night?” she asked, her voice sliced through the silence startling and stopping me in my tracks.
I hadn’t noticed her, tucked in the corner of the family room in her favorite chair, tattered mint green robe knotted under her breasts. I could see an open book in her lap, dog-eared and weathered from years of use, no telling how long she had been up. Waiting for me, worrying about me. I hated that, hated that I added more stress to her life. I knew six months ago it was time for me to go, time to find my own place.
I had foolishly hoped she would have gone to bed by now. The digital clock glared beside her casting a red glow across the room. 3:32 a.m. She and I both knew there wasn’t much open at that time of night. Nothing she’d want me involved in that is.
I kept my head down avoiding her all-knowing gaze, “I was out” I replied walking stiffly to the stairs sticking to the shadows in hopes the darkness hid my secrets. I held my breath and contracted my muscles as I slowly sat down. I exhaled forcibly and leaned back staring at the ceiling.
Suddenly, there was a bright light chasing away the darkness. She stood from her chair, her statuesque frame casting a shadow along the floor.
“I can smell you from over here,” again her voice –tainted with displeasure- slashed through the room delivering quick jabs. I honestly didn’t know if she meant the Johnny Walker leaking from my pores or the sweat running down my armpits, so I feigned ignorance.
“I just left the gym” drawled from my lips. My lips … felt funny. Loose. Like, I wasn’t in control of them.
“HA! They are giving out red label at gyms now?!?! Well I’ll be! That’s new”, she said “YOU forget. Me and your mother were drinking that before you were even born …” her voice cracked and began to trail off, the way it always did at the mention of my mother.
“Your mother –” she started again.
She along with the room started to sway. My vision was cloudy, the room was getting smaller with darkness encroaching on the peripheral like I was looking through a peephole.
“Good night Nadi” I began trying to cut her, the pain and memories off. Reaching for the banister I tried to will strength into my legs. To stand. To escape.
With wobbly legs I took the first few steps before falling backwards -in what felt like slow motion- and slamming my head into the wooden floor.
“Zo!” was the last thing I heard before it all went dark