NWKP: Backstory

by S.L. Jordan

“Where were you last night?” she asked, her voice sliced through the silence startling and stopping me in my tracks. 

I hadn’t noticed her, tucked in the corner of the family room in her favorite chair, tattered mint green robe knotted under her breasts. I could see an open book in her lap, dog-eared and weathered from years of use, no telling how long she had been up. Waiting for me, worrying about me. I hated that, hated that I added more stress to her life. I knew six months ago it was time for me to go, time to find my own place.

I had foolishly hoped she would have gone to bed by now. The digital clock glared beside her casting a red glow across the room. 3:32 a.m. She and I both knew there wasn’t much open at that time of night. Nothing she’d want me involved in that is. 

I kept my head down avoiding her all-knowing gaze, “I was out” I replied walking stiffly to the stairs sticking to the shadows in hopes the darkness hid my secrets. I held my breath and contracted my muscles as I slowly sat down. I exhaled forcibly and leaned back staring at the ceiling. 

Suddenly, there was a bright light chasing away the darkness. She stood from her chair, her statuesque frame casting a shadow along the floor. 

“I can smell you from over here,” again her voice –tainted with displeasure- slashed through the room delivering quick jabs. I honestly didn’t know if she meant the Johnny Walker leaking from my pores or the sweat running down my armpits, so I feigned ignorance. 

“I just left the gym” drawled from my lips. My lips … felt funny. Loose. Like, I wasn’t in control of them.

“HA! They are giving out red label at gyms now?!?! Well I’ll be! That’s new”, she said “YOU forget. Me and your mother were drinking that before you were even born …” her voice cracked and began to trail off, the way it always did at the mention of my mother.

“Your mother –” she started again.

She along with the room started to sway. My vision was cloudy, the room was getting smaller with darkness encroaching on the peripheral like I was looking through a peephole. 

“Good night Nadi” I began trying to cut her, the pain and memories off. Reaching for the banister I tried to will strength into my legs. To stand. To escape.

With wobbly legs I took the first few steps before falling backwards -in what felt like slow motion- and slamming my head into the wooden floor.

“Zo!” was the last thing I heard before it all went dark

FE/26 – Part V

by S.L. Jordan

🜝

Quiet as a mouse, I made my way around the counter. Slowly, I pushed the door open -pausing when it creaked- and crept into the back hallway. It was scarcely lit and the beating of my heart drummed loudly in my ears drowning out the buzz of the overhead lights. I tried controlling my breath, long slow inhales and exhales, like my instructor taught us. I needed to be in control. 

“My body is a weapon, and I yield it with precision and control”

Sliding one foot in front of the other I continued down the hallway, it showed evidence of a struggle; scuff marks and broken drywall. A smear of bright red blood leading the way. It was still wet to the touch and the metallic scent sent me into a haze. Not now, I thought. I couldn’t lose focus, anxiety caused the acid to swirl in the pit of my stomach. I channeled that energy outward. I slid my hand into the brass knuckles I kept in my sweatpants and followed the trail until I came upon the back door, Sunmil’s office I assumed.

Now, I could hear muffled sounds coming from the office. There was a sliver of light that spilled into the hallway. Shadows could be seen moving around in the room. 

“That is all the money we have in the safe” Sunny said, his voice filled with fear. There were two other men in the room with him, their gruff voices barking orders and threats. From a crack in the door, I spotted his family -wife and three boys- crouched in the corner held at gunpoint, while the other assailant forced Sumnil to give up the safe. Sunny’s face was badly bruised. The blood in my veins roared ferociously at the quiver in his voice and I kicked in the door taking the captors by surprise. Knocking the gun from his hand with a flying roundhouse kick, I crouched down and sweep him with a muay thai low kick. He went down and clipped his head on the corner of the desk, blood began pooling from his wound filling the room with a pungent metallic scent. Iron – I could taste it on my tongue – it fueled me on.  

I was so damned amazed with myself, but I didn’t have time to throw a parade before his partner in crime began throwing bottles at me. Adrenaline and anger propelled me forward. I was sick of people taking advantage of innocent people. I was sick of no justice. In between the rage, flying fists, and colliding bodies flashes of my mother lying on that living room floor struggling to take her last breath ran through my mind. My fists continued to pummel him as a warm mist sprayed across my face. 

He was unresponsive by the time Sunny could pull me away. My ragged breath filled the room. I couldn’t face Sunny and his family. No one had ever seen that side of me outside of the studio – hell I had never seen that side of me. His boys stared in awe as silent tears ran down their cheeks when their mother ran to me and wrapped me in the tightest hug. It was then I noticed I had taken some pretty solid rib shots. I winced. She spoke into my chest, a voice tinged with tears, “thank you” she whispered before returning to console her boys. 

Sunny grabbed my hand. The one with the brass knuckles still slick with blood. He just held it, gave me a squeeze.

“Leave before I call the cops” he said, and turned to his family to say “a masked person came in to save us.” They nodded in agreement.  

Yeah, that might be a good idea I thought. Walking back down the hallway and into the store I grabbed my Johnny Walker and took a swig with shaky hands. The rum raisin aroma filling my nostrils I felt every muscle in my body relax. Surprisingly, the heat of the drink felt cool as it made its way down. 

I strolled leisurely back to my apartment, the light of the moon guiding my way. The crisp night air mixed with the pepper sips of scotch had me on a high I never felt before. For the first time in years, I felt safe.  I could get used to this feeling. 

The End ….

or is it?

FE/26 – Part III

S.L.Jordan

Now watch me whip (kill it!)

Watch me nae nae (okay!)

Now watch me whip whip

Watch me nae nae (can you do it?)

Now watch me

Ooh watch me, watch me

Ooh watch me, watch me

Ooh watch me, watch me

Ooh ooh ooh ooh

Last day of school and the neighborhood was jumping. “The block was hot” was my momma would say, I think she got that from some old rapper. Guys were cruising in their parents’ cars, and all the fly girls were posted up. Stoop. Porch. Park bench, didn’t matter.

I was carefully juggling groceries as I headed to my mom’s job to surprise her. I had taken some of my birthday money and bought the ingredients from key lime pie. Our favorite. I had made it to the front door of her building without accident when a hooded figure almost knocked me down the stoop.

“Heyyyyy” I yelled at his retreating back as I snatched my buds from my ears, “you didn’t see me?” I continued yelling as he forced his way through the pedestrians on the sidewalk before ducking into the nearest alley. I was shaken, but the eggs were not. “Freaking dope fiends” I muttered as I picked up my keys and replaced my ear buds, thankful that the cashier at the store double bagged my items. I told my mom many times she should find another building to rent her office store. The entrance almost always reeked of stale urine, and sometimes – on rare occasion- actual crap, human crap. 

“Baby, sometimes you have to wade in the trash to get things done.” She would say, whatever I wasn’t wading in no trash when I grew up.

The hall and stairwell was eerily quiet, I could always count on Sister Hastings to be on what I call her hallway porch around this time, making the hair on my arm slowly rise to attention. I remember starting to speed walk which turned into a light jog when I saw her office door ajar. Not ajar. Wide open, like someone had forced open. 

I walked into a scene that showed signs of a fight. Papers and furniture strewn led me to the start of a blood trail, and I dropped my bags. I could hear the glass bottle of lime juice as it smashed the cartoon of eggs. The yolk slowly started to run into the pool of blood. The metallic scent of blood hung heavy in the air and coated my tongue. Gagging I stumbled through what was traditionally the living room turned waiting room through the apartment until I found her, halfway to her safe where she kept her gun. 

Her throat had been slit from what I could see – It wasn’t until later that I found out the exact number of times someone had stabbed her – but she was still breathing. Slow and shallow. Fumbling with my cell phone I grabbed the nearest piece of cloth I could see to  stop the bleeding while I waited for someone to answer.

“911, what’s your emergency?”

“please come quick. my mother, her throat. blood everywhere. please”

“are you in a safe place?”

“yes. please. her throat has been cut. it’s so much blood”

“give me your address and i will send EMS out immediately”

“313205 westmoreland blvd apt 4051”

“sending someone out to you. i will stay with you on the phone until someone arrives. keep pressure on the wound”

“please hurry”

To be continued for the fourth installment …