June 6, 2015

NWKP Backstory

“To win any battle, you must fight as if you are already dead.” Miyamoto Musashi

By S.L. Jordan

She knew from the very beginning, that one day this day would arrive. When they started The Order 23 years ago, they made peace with the fact that it might all end tragically. The cause was worth it.

She thought she had come to terms with it, but those decisions were made before Izola. By young, bright eyed and naïve lawyers – who wanted nothing more than to change the World.

Now, she was a mother. A mother who loved her daughter dearly.

Repeatedly glancing over her shoulder, she hurried down the busied sidewalk to her office. It was a beautiful day, and the neighborhood was taking advantage after a brutal winter. Stoops were crowded, music was blaring, and kids sped by on anything with wheels. Inara loved the energy in Black Bottom Hill- one of the last holdouts in the fight against gentrification, there was so much history within those six blocks. A legacy laid by her ancestors. She stopped in front of the building that held her remote office.

313205 Westmoreland Blvd. One of the first buildings her great-grandfather purchased.

Stepping over the puddle of urine in the vestibule, she hurried up the four flight of stairs. Giving a half-hearted wave to Sister Hastings she slammed the door behind her and turned the deadbolt.

Besides her desk, in a safe in the floor she pulled out a satellite phone and dialed Josue.

“Bonjour” his voice floated through the lines. After all these years, the sound of her husband’s Haitian accent still made her weak in the knees.

She doubled over from the thought, her heart thumped with grief. This might be the last time they spoke.

“It’s time” she said.

The silence was deafening.

She could hear him walk across the plush carpet of his office and close the door.

“Are you sure?” he said as his voice broke.

“Yes. Remember, you mustn’t come. You have to stay there and make sure things are still in place.”

“But, ZoZo –“

“NO!” she interrupted, “you must follow the plan. Nadine will be here with Zo. She will take care of things here.”

“How do you expect me to not come for my daughter?” he asked. There was anger brimming his voice. After the birth of Zo Josue wanted to back away from The Order, to find another way to save the world. A way that wouldn’t take us away from her.

“Josue,” she uttered softly “we know this is the best way to make sure she stays safe.”

“But” he said ….

She slumped down into the chair and looked outside the window. The weight of it all fell on her shoulders as they sat there. Silently. Listening to each other breathe.

“you won’t be here to feel the brunt of her anger” he finished on a sob.

“I know” she whispered.

Author’s Note:

I used to HATE writing backstory- the pieces that do not make it into the final draft, but informed aspects of your character and plot. Inara is my protagonist, Izola, mother. Nightwatcher of Kween’s Port starts ten years after her murder. Decisions were made years before Izola was born that placed her on the path to becoming the Nightwatcher of Kween’s Port.

A Revelation

By: Tony W.

The dreams are taking a toll. 

bedsheets pulled 

I pissed myself, again. 

I’m a shambling zombie. 

Brown skin sallow

eyes sunken  

hair thinning 

The tail is looking rather scraggly. 

Showered I feel somewhat more alive. 

Then I feel them

Two more small puncture wounds along my inner thigh  

It took a while to dress.

forgo makeup 

Again, shambling zombie

Early morning sun sends me 

(Is that smoke?)

Back in my apartments cool darkness

A quick SLACK 

I crawl back into bed

Too tired to face what is glaringly evident.

I’m becoming a vampire.

K’s 2022 Reading List – Book 1 of 12

by K. Osorio-Teamer

Book 1 of 12: The Four Agreements 

28 pages left. 

I’m 28 pages short of meeting my goal of reading one book per month. We’re well into February, a blink of a month, but I’m not discouraged. Time is a construct and so on. 

The book feels appropriate as the first book in a new year’s resolution reading goal. It’s about taking more control of our thoughts, words, and actions, and realizing our own power in our journey. I have said one or all of the four agreements to myself since starting the book. They’re memorable and short, which helps. Their simplicity just makes sense.

I do a lot of work on myself. I value my self care and mental health, and do a lot of inner work to be sure I practice mindfulness as much as I can. I’ve come across many practices, and knowing about them isn’t enough. For something to work for me, I need to practically integrate it into my life. I found a graphic of the agreements and set it as my background on my work computer. Work is the place where I am most tested and can feel the most unbalanced. Seeing the phrases throughout the day has made it easier for me to get grounded when I feel a little overwhelmed. It has the same energy as Frank Constanza screaming ‘serenity now!” on Seinfeld (S9,E3). 

Below are some anecdotes that make me laugh and that capture the energy of each agreement. So don’t mind me, I’m just laughing my ass off on the way to nirvana, yall.

  1. Be impeccable with your word

My best friend and I went to Brazos Bend State Park for a nice walk and to possibly see some wild animals. I had never been to a state park like it and wasn’t used to all that nature. Regardless, I thought it would be fun to prank my friend as we walked by the alligator lake. We read that the alligators liked to come out of the lake at night, so as the sun began to set and we started to leave the lake, I made my move. I jumped into a sprint suddenly and screamed “alligator!” Growing tired, I stopped running and came clean. 

A year or maybe two years later we went back with a third friend. Once again we were by the lake. Once again the sun was setting. I was walking my friend’s dog and the older pup kept sniffing near the edge of the lake. I shined my light on the dog’s face and inches from her was the snout of a gator. A fucking alligator. I jumped into a sprint suddenly and screamed “alligator.” My friends didn’t immediately react. Don’t worry they’re alive. They eventually came after me and I had to swear I wasn’t lying to my once burned friend. This agreement is more related to using words and thoughts wisely, but it’s also about knowing the power of your words. And I should have never cried alligator. 

  1. Don’t take anything personally

I may be misremembering this whole thing but here goes: Two of my best friends were in the garden center of a store and a customer was being very rude to an employee. The employee didn’t say anything, and eventually the erratic customer walked away. The employee watched the customer walk away and said “that ain’t got nothing to do with me” and walked away. I wish to channel their energy any time someone does something that could possibly get under my skin. 

  1. Don’t make assumptions

This one’s short and sweet. When my baby girl started Pre-K 4, I was so committed to giving her a good morning so she could have a great school day. We cooked nutritious and tasty breakfasts and she ate every single morning. I assumed she was only having her home packed lunch at school. Her teachers assumed differently. They assumed she ate breakfast at school and not at home. So for weeks, my baby boo was eating second breakfast like a happy hobbit in the Shire. How to avoid scenarios like these? Ask all the questions until there are no assumptions to make. 

  1. Always do your best

This one feels like it’s about giving yourself grace. Honestly doing your best, but knowing your best isn’t always at the same level. If our output is a fire, the quality of the flame depends on the quality of the wood and its placement. And those can be different with each fire that is set each passing day and moment. 

This story is about my mom. A tired woman who just wanted milk in her coffee. One morning, I was running late to school and my mom was still in pajamas. I was dressed at the table eating breakfast and just wanted to remind my mom that I was running late for school. I now realize she was well aware of the time. I get her a lot more now. She was exhausted from work and probably didn’t sleep well the night before. She was probably going to hurry and get dressed as soon as she got her cafe con leche – KEY WORD LECHE – in her system. She opened the fridge to find a nearly empty gallon of milk. The dew droplets of milk in the jug danced as she shook it. It could’ve been me or my brother. I have no idea. She was on her way out of the kitchen with her black coffee when I made the mistake of touching her pajama sleeve. The word “Mami” had barely escaped my mouth when she screamed in spanish “No one can save some milk in this house for me! I’m sick of it!” There were some cuss words in there too but I can’t remember the exact ones.

This story reminds me that even then, my Mami was doing her best. There were a million factors that contributed to her blowing up on me, but she was still doing her best with what she had. I can push myself to do my best, but that best will vary from day to day and moment to moment. 

28 pages left and then I can start on my fiction book. I’ll report back next month,